New Blogs.

Okay, so I made three new blogs. Since some people used to complain about when I'd not post in English, I kind of stopped posting in other languages... but I miss it. So I created a blog for my entries in French, one for entries in Portuguese and one for Catalan which I have just begun to study.

For those of you who are interested in reading my thoughts in another language or for those of you who have difficulties with English and would prefer to read about my crazy life in those languages rather than in English, feel free to bookmark my new blogs and comment on entries there and all that. :)

Here are the links to the new blogs:

My Blog in French
My Blog in Portuguese
My Blog in Catalan

Una nit sense en Leo

This is the first day in a week and a half that I didn't go see Leo. I was getting too attached.

I opted to stay home this time instead of rushing over when he called asking for my company. Honestly, I don't know how to feel. I guess part of me is sad because I miss him (not to mention that I was really enjoying sleeping in the same bed as someone else several nights in a row), but part of me is relieved. I'm so bi-polar.

He's another guy who makes me feel deficient. I think I'm going to distance myself from him. I know he loves me, but I still just feel bad about myself around him and I shouldn't surround myself with people who make me feel like that.

New semester!

So it's Monday. I've survived my first week back at school for the semester. I love my classes and professors. I'm making some cool new friends. And most noteworthy, I've seen Leo every day for eight days straight. And three nights, I spent the night with him here. We're not having sex, no kissing, nothing... we're still just behaving like friends. I'd like to see more than that happening, but I don't want to push it and scare him away. I think I'm getting attached. I'm crazy about him, but I don't think it's a feeling that we both share... but I know he adores me -- if not as more than a friend, I know that he loves me and considers me to be someone very special to him. Maybe with time things will change. We'll see.

So right now, I'm in Leo's dorm room (or "our place" as Leo and I call it). I spent the night here with him again last night after a night out with Dustin. Leo has left and taken off to class and forbidden me to leave so we can hang out afterwards. I'm glad. This reassures me that it's not just me forcing myself on him and possibly being that guy who just keeps inviting himself over.

Last night, for reasons I won't go into right now, I saw Leo get emotional. He weeped in my arms. I saw him in a very vulnerable state. It broke my heart to see him hurting so much, and yet in those moments, he was more beautiful to me than he has ever been.

In any case, here's a kind of old photo of me (on the right), Leo (directly to my left), some guy, and Amanda.

Snow White y El Tao Tao

Oh man, this made me giggle.

Oblivious boys!

I know that I often seem like I am in love with a new boy like every week and then I complain about how frustrated he's made me...

Well, it's been a little while since that happened, so time to get back into the cycle. ;)

But I won't give too many details this time. I'll just say that boys are so oblivious. They have no idea what's going on. I'm crazy about him... I have been since I met him a year ago. I guess I'll just grow a pair and tell him how I feel. I'm just such a pansy when it comes to boys and telling them how I feel and being direct. I wish he would just see it in my eyes, understand, and kiss me...

Stop dreaming...

Fundies!

Here is a link to a fun post in a random blog.

Top Ten Signs You're a Fundamentalist Christian

Click it! I dare you!

City matches!

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Your personality type is SCUEI

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The Medium

So the opera "Medium" was last night. To those of you who didn't go, it was really quite good. Very modern 20th century type opera. And also the fabulous company who showed up made it even better. Patty, her daughter, Stacy, Brett, Carlos, Grady, Leo and Sergio. Some of my favourite people.

After the opera, we went to JR's and Southbeach, all except Patty, her daughter, and Grady. We danced a lot and Leo and I flirted all night... it was good. I wish Leo were interested in me. He's not into chubby guys. It really sucks. I think we'd be great together -- everything else fits perfectly. I can definitely tell that he adores me. Well, the fact that he tells me so kind of gives it away. But he's one of those few guys that I can go hang out with and we'll talk and talk and talk and never be able to say goodbye because we don't want to end the dialogue. I guess I'm kind of infatuated with him. Anywhere, here is a little blurry photo of me, Amanda and Leo. It's from a few months ago and it's not a very flattering photo for any of us... and it doesn't help that Leo always makes goofy faces for photos.

Did I mention that Leo is from Argentina? And he speaks really pretty Spanish? Yeah...

Last night I also saw Tiago Brandão (AKA Tiago Whore). I called him out on his being selfish and always using people and he got a little impatient. Oh well.

Diet status.

Well, I haven't been very good since I last posted about my weight-loss progress. I've cheated on my diet a few times and I haven't exercised as often as I planned, but nevertheless, I did manage to make at least a little progress since then. Looks like about 2.2 pounds less than the last post. Gotta keep going!


Any my new rule for myself: Alcohol only once a month... unless it's a really special occasion!

Last week, I lost three whole pounds while dieting. And then during the weekend, I cheated a little and partied all Saturday and drank way too much. Come Monday, turns out I gained two pounds back. Not worth it at all. Alcohol and deliciously unhealthy food will be there in a few months when I'm a skinny bitch.

Brokebat Mountain

That's really how I feel sometimes about a certain someone. Maybe more than just one certain someone. I wish I knew how to quit him.

V For Vendetta

So, I saw V For Vendetta tonight with Stacy, Olga, Steven, Rosie, and Jason... what a great movie. And so relevant to us, I think.

Perhaps even a scary forshadowing of our future...

Pretty.

Where the hell is Matt?

Whoa! Now this is fun. A guy named Matt has been traveling all over the world and making a video of himself dancing many of the world's most beautiful places. Take a look. Good stuff. :)

Amor e ódio.

Não consigo entender como é possível que eu possa amar tanto alguém e odiá-lo ao mesmo tempo.

Bom, com certeza eu não o odeio. Odeio o fato que ele me faz sentir tão fraco. Eu deveria poder controlar melhor o que eu sinto, mas não dá enquanto eu sei que ele está ainda no mundo e que talvez um dia eu possa vê-lo novamente. E bem sei que ele não se interessa mais em mim, mas não consigo esquecê-lo. Faz um ano que eu não o vejo, mas ainda penso nele e ainda espero que estejamos juntos um dia.

Pensei que eu tivesse superado, mas hoje, acho que não.

Body Worlds

On Saturday, after having slept only three hours the night before after going out and being stood up by a date (boys suck), I went to see the Body Worlds 3 exhibit at the Houston Museum of Natural Science with my family. Amazing. That's all I can say. Simply amazing.

I highly recommend that all of you go and see it if you can. It was very fun and educational.

After that, my father took us to eat at Mely's in Pearland. I had the "Pollo Macarena". It was delicious... it was kind of like pollo poblano but the sauce was kind of different. It totally gave me a foodgasm.

Then, I went to a Brazilian party with Adriana, then we went to another party with all her co-workers in Pearland, then lastly a final party with the ones who wanted to get kind of wild and we drank and danced and had a great time. And then the two of us passed out on a stranger's bed with a boy whose name I can't remember.

At 8:00am after having slept probably only four hours, Adriana woke me up and got me to take her home... it's really difficult to drive while you're asleep, just to let you know. ;) I went home and slept the entire day and finally woke up at 7:00pm. I suppose I caught up on all the sleep from the past two days that I had missed. I feel much better now, though. ;)

Ah... oh... Kenny just called and is inviting me to go visit him at a bar called 611 that I've never been to. I can never say no to him... who do I ever say no to anyway? Oh well, here I go to make myself presentable and then I'm off!

Have a good night, my lovelies.

So wrong.

Bunny!

Bandtastic!

So last night, in one of my dreams, I was in a parking lot sitting in my car, plugging my iPod in so I could jam out as I drove away, when suddenly someone opened the back window of my car (which actually doesn't have an openable back window) and I saw before me three tall, somewhat aged, gay men. One of whom was Mr. Grice, my former band director from high school.

One of his friends saw one of those little CD flip-case things (those things that hold likes 20 or so CDs) in my car and reached in and grabbed it and looked like he was going to walk away with it. And so I snatched it back out of his hand and was like, "What are you doing, crazy?" To which he replied that he really loved my CD case which had an emblem of the Pride of Pearland Band on it and he wanted it so badly for his daughter. And then, like such an asshole, I responded, "Well, if she ever learns to play like I did, the bitch can get her own!" and I drove away, but not without hearing the other little gay man start laughing as if to encourage me. I think that one might have been Mr. Luster, the guy who taught clarinet to the middle school beginners and who happened to be an incredible clarinetist and a genius... and the first big flaming homosexual I ever met and befriended. Oh well, I can't remember. The dream is fading.

Jogging.

I like jogging. It's a habit I had about two years ago and then it suddenly stopped. Just lately I am beginning to try to do it regularly again. So my sister and I have been jogging every day for about a week now. I had forgotten how accomplished it makes me feel.

I can't wait until I'm one of those skinny bitches that I hate. Those'll be good times.

And to all those skinny bitches out there, I don't really hate you. I actually kind of like some of you.

Job!

So more good news! I'm basically hired for that cool project studying reading skills and techniques for teaching literacy. So I'm content. I have training next week and work starts pretty much when all the little junior high school and stuff start up.

That's exciting. I won't be as poor as before. And maybe I can start saving up money for a little trip. Can't decide. It's either a trip to France with a few days in Portugal, or a trip to Brazil. I don't know yet. There is also still the possibility of my going to Guadalajara, Mexico in December with Valentina and Amanda since Valentina has a house there! That'll be awesome!

Anyway, just because it is cute, here is a photo from a while back of me, Valentina and Amanda licking a wooden spoon covered with chocolate cake batter. Mmmm... guilty pleasures!

Evil dogs!

I had an awful, long and draw-out dream last night. I dreamt that Amanda never came home from Brazil because she was attacked and killed by a big mean dog. It was horrible. I cried so much. And I went to visit her family and I couldn't bare it. In the dream, Amanda had an identical twin sister who tried to comfort me, but she reminded me too much of Amanda and it broke my heart.

It's been a long time since I've been so happy to wake up from a dream.

On a more exciting note, I have an interview for a job this afternoon that I'm very excited about. Well, my friend Brett who has been hired there basically guaranteed me the position. Although I can't believe that, I think it means I can be optimistic. Here is a snippet of the job description:

The Texas Center for Learning Disabilities is interested in hiring 20 data collectors for the fall 2006. Individuals will conduct assessments of adolescent language, literacy, cognition, and mathematics, complete assessment records, verify accuracy of assessment data, and assist in the scheduling of students for assessments.

Anyway, it seems like it should be super cool. Firstly, they are looking for part-time positions for only like 20 hours a week. Secondly, they are very flexible with hours and told me that my being a student will not be a problem at all. They'll just work around my classes. Thirdly, it's related to education and linguistics. And lastly, they will pay me hourly more than twice what I made when I worked at Foley's.

So yeah, I'm pretty excited. :)

United Statesians?

We really need a word for "American" that is more specific. I mean, technically, American can refer to anyone born on the continent of America... Canadians, Mexicans, all the people from Central and South America, et caetera.

I mean, in Spanish, for example, the word "americano" refers to anyone in North or South America. The word to refer to citizens of the United States of America is "estadounidense" coming from the name of our country in Spanish -- "Los Estados Unidos". Spanish speakers, in fact, often think that we are very egocentric because we call ourselves "Americans" and we often call our country "America" as if to say that we're all that matter on the continent of America.

Of course, the truth is, that they simple don't understand that "American" and "americano" are not synonyms. In modern English, "American" only refers to the citizens of the USA. And anyone who speaks English uses the word "American" to describe us, including all the many other English speaking countries. If we need to be broader than that, we can say "North American" which includes the Canadians and Mexicans... or "South American" even. So if we think we're all that matter on this continent, I suppose that means that England, Australia, New Zealand, South Africa and so on all agree that we are all that matter. :P

Anyway, I'm tired of being lectured by Spanish speakers... and a few Brazilians. Especially ironic that the Brazilians try to lecture me on that. Especially since in Portuguese, they HAVE a word that refers specifically to us Americans -- "Estadunidense" -- but NO ONE uses it! They always choose to use the word "americano". Really kind of strange to me.

Amanda!

I miss my Amanda.

She was my really good friend that I met through the YMCA BIP program last year. And during the training process, we became really great friends. Now she's been in Brazil for almost three months and I don't have my sidekick anymore!

But... she'll be back soon. In like two weeks. I can't wait to see her again. And Valentina too. We had such good times. ;)

So anyway, here's a photo of us drunk.

Butt pirates.

Here's a cute photo of a flag that Dustin sent to me. I wanted to share.



Yes, that does say: "Surrender the Booty"

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